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I searched the net to find a place for "caregivers" because I know it's a double edged sword and I didn't to sharpen anyone's points.

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Um, what?! If I think I got you right in your meaning here, you did find the right place.

Please do not underestimate the value of having scaregiver's forum (that was an actual typo, really, but I thought it was kinda funny, so I ain't gonna change it!) on this site. (There MUST be a reason why it is mixed in, and I cannot imagine that it is strictly for convenience sake).

I don't know about anyone else, but I often visit this site because I really don't get to "see" what my behaviours really do to others. Granted, it can be (and is) heartbreaking for me, but it is also a heartbreaking situation that you are in. If I can "see" only a portion of what the real consequences of my behaviours are, it can make a profound difference in my recovery. We (as in the "royal we") don't really specialize in seeing things as they are (meaning within a "normal and/or logical" context all the time, especially under duress).

You have been a courageous person - know that! You have done everything you can think of, right? Feel good about that, too!! It's probably only one of the things that will help you to feel good during this difficult time in your life.

Whatever your decision, I hope the best for you and your whole family.

AS