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you are not inflicting anything upon us all

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I am... and I really shouldn't...

I have no right to moan, and no right to impose it upon everyone here, espessially as I can never think of anything to say to help others... and so have no right to ask myself

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Orion - I hate saying this but you're WRONG. It is cognitive distortions or people before in your life that made you feel like you were being a pest or an annoyance and internalizing that false message - makes you say things that aren't true. (Or that is at least how I see it, which is my truth and my reality because I feel the same way).

You can't possibly inflict yourself on any one of us because this is a community website. As a community, we LIKE and WANT to help people. And you do actually seem like a very nice person.

Everyone has a right to moan and groan and complain and feel hurt. I was told that today by my therapist because I do feel the same way that you do. So me actually telling you this is like me not taking my own advice but maybe if I try to help someone else (you) then that will help me. So you are helping me in a way - even if it isn't very direct. As for helping anyone other than yourself, helping yourself first helps all of us. We can learn from you about yourself and while you try to get better and change for the better - we learn from your experiences.

Sorry I tend to ramble on occassion. I hope I didn't overstep any boundaries, and if I did I do apologize but everything I said is what I truly believe.

(((((((((Orion))))))))) Take care of yourself and PM me anytime if you want to chat.