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Originally Posted by ready2makenice
Elliemay: Its weird because I trust her and I honestly didn't feel like I was over doing it. I don't know what I did so wrong
I'm at a point now where I just don't want to go,I need time away,to see if I can really be in therapy,be in therapy with her and also I feel like I tried hard not to reach out for her and I did,so now I'm so lost and hurt and this was the worst session ever!!
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I'm sorry you're hurting. This must feel like a rejection, but I'm not sure it is.
It IS important to entertain the idea that you did nothing wrong. I think what you did is completely normal. Odds are your life is not too much for this therapist, she's not pushing you away at all, but helping you to regulate what you are feeling.
Again, USE this feeling of connection and hope.
Also, and I know you are venting and I totally get that. Above all else I hear you.
I would, however, propose that these feelings of rejection come from a very very old place and are not relevant (no matter how much they feel that way) to the current situation.
No, your therapist is not your friend, they are actually something much much better for you perhaps right now.
A person that can help you to make friends, forge connections and live a happier, more interdependent life.
Is there something in this relationship that you can see as different from those who have had in the past? Anything that says that this is not a rejection but something that you can leverage to help you?
Anything at all?