Sorry this took to long I had a busy day.

Sistah - I wish things were just simpler.

Bluemountains – I have no idea what has triggered the feeling. It's been kind of rattling around for a very long time. My husband is and is not being supportive. He is giving me my meds so I don't “forget” but he keeps insisting I'm still hypo-manic and making little jabs at it. Including asking what I said to T to make her think I'm not hypo-manic. My son was so brave Monday and I'm so proud of him. He picks at his scalp seriously has no skin left up there. He actually got a hair cut and showed his Pdoc his scalp.

Sugahorse1 - If I stop the meds I figure it'll take a while to get use to again but after it'll be better.

Coco- I don't have a support group but I have a family team so my family is dealt with as a whole. I refuse to see T while she's sick because I don't want to catch it.

Ultramar – I don't want meds, I don't want therapy, I don't want anything I just want to go back to not dealing with the MH system at all. I'm tired and just done. I regularly talk to T about the whole hatred for meds and being fed up but it always turns into me getting frustrated and changing topics.

I have officially avoided my pdoc since February (haven't fully honest since November) and I'm shooting for avoiding him until July but my whole families team knows I've purposely canceled so everyone GP, my t, son's t, sons pdoc, h's t, marriage t & h's pdoc have gently reminded / wrote down when my appointment with pdoc is. It's not that I don't like pdoc I like him a lot. He's a guy I'd hang out with in other circumstances. I want to figure out what I want to do before talking to him.

My husband said to talk to pdoc. My husband knows where all our T's stand, more meds not less. He'll stand behind pdoc.