Elliemay: T always told me that I shouldn't have expectations of anyone so high including her and I didn't realize that I was struggling with that until now. I'm not sure they're relevant but right now they feel that way,I'm still trying to process the whole session from today and I know that I'm very impulsive. I always made sure to distance myself a bit from her I just felt all of this was so off guard.
Honestly I feel like she is trying to help me be more independent with this but I also feel as though she's pushing me away the exact way I told her that everyone else would only in a nicer form.
Idk if I'm just crazy and over analyzing everything but my feelings were/are still pretty hurt and I keep telling myself I shouldn't care so much!!!

Antimatter:T gets a bit personal sometimes,so I think that's where it came from. She always says that she says things out of love even if it hurts my feelings,thats not her intention. I really don't know what to think anymore. You're right I should ask her,if I ever go back to her.
Thanks I will!!

Syra:thanks for understanding!!yess actually

Okay initially this topic didn't really come up until the end of the session. This is what happened...she gave me a journal to write in at the beginning of T and very rarely have I read anything for her from it and today I let her read something I had wrote and thats when this whole thing started and now I regret ever letting her read it,if I knew that would've been her reaction!

I was thinking of emailing her and letting her know how I felt about the ending and everything because I'm not sure she got a clear view of what I was feeling and def. not as in depth. I told her I will never email her about anything anymore or text and I'll just wait til the next session. Also I think I might start going every 2 weeks instead of every week, I feel like I'm too much now for weekly and yet another person can't deal with me and is pushing me away!!Every time I start to get close and develop a bond,this happens,why I don't keep friends and keep the ones I do have at a distance!!