You're not a freak. Not at all. I used to hit myself all the time when I was a kid. Probably starting around age 8 or 9. Whenever I had a thought in my head that scared me or I didn't like I would smack myself on the head until it went away. Like for some reason I was always terrified my mom was going to die and whenever I started worrying about that I just hit myself on the head until it vanished and then I was fine. I don't know why I did that but eventually I stopped doing it and I started cutting/burning myself when I was 14.

Watching a funny movie, taking a shower, dancing, cooking, etc. are all good distractions. Take care of yourself.

XO,
Courtney