I totally have the same issue. I get a job and do so good in the beginning. Then I start dreading the thought of going in. I am not talking about simply not wanting to go. I feel sick at thought of going in. All I want is to bury myself in my bed. I stay home all the while being overwhelmed by guilt. I got into the nursing programming which I had worked so hard for. It is like a full-time job. I dropped out because I just couldn't hold the schedule. People who don't have this problem can't understand. They say, "just get over it ". I bate it. I let everyone down. It is not stress or not liking the job. I loved my last job. I just couldn't muster up the energy to get out of bed. Depression is stealing much of my life. There have been so many things I have missed out on. This depression doesn't pertain only to work. We will plan on doing something fun and then the day comes to do it I can't get out of bed. I have let my family down again. I don't like being like this. I feel like my life is passing by and I am just watching. My husband has told many times that the things that "normal" people don't do. I know that. I do not like being abnormal. My moods are evident in the tidiness of my home. When I am up, the house is tidy and when I am down it isn't. I can go days without showering and then snap out of it and begin to act " normal".
I am still trying to cope. I totally relate.