I am sorry you are having a struggle, but I went through that too. I was hospitilized once and put on Risperdol. I didn't like what that did to me. The second time I was hospitilized, I was given the right diagnosis of bi-polar disorder and put on Tegretol. I had to eventually be put on Abilify too. So, you may have to go through hell to get the right medication combination for whatever is ailing you as well.