Hi all. I am new to this site but wanted to post. I have been struggling with my eating disorder for about 8 years now. Started when i was just a kid really. I was in the hospital for it not too long ago and got discharged back in August. I now am at a point where im stuck! I am feeling like i am fat and worthless and that i need control, I have to control food again, I need it to work out all of it. I need to excersize, but i cant let my parents know im struggling again or im surely a goner. Will be shipped out again. I dont know what to do. There is too much going on for me to cope with and im alone and scared to death. I just need to disappear....