oh yeah - what it has cost me -

my innocence, in a way.
I once believed I had had a normal family,
a normal upbringing,
and was doing OK for myself.
Now I know better.
And... although I'd sensed there were things not right with me, I had no idea how deep and far reaching the damage was.
Now I am finding out.

What it has cost me is also what I have achieved: knowledge of the truth and there is no un-knowing it now.
There is only what I'm going to do about it.