Hi there.
I can totally relate to what you are describing. I am a rapid cycler, and battle most with my depressive episodes which also tend to last a lot longer. My hypo manic and mixed episodes tend to throw me, but they luckily only stick around for a few days.

I've experienced a lot of meds, and been hospitalized a few times. I have come to realize the value of a good pdoc and T to get healthy. And communication is very important.

I wish you all the best