Hi, I do not have any answers but want to say my ex is an alcoholic too. I do not get much sleep for a very long time now. In my dreams it seems to be the same, always at some kind of a party at her new place. Different every time but similar that I am constantly trying to find her. I am having trouble letting go. we get together and break up over and over and that part is in real life. I seem to be a real sucker for punishment as I love her dearly but the love just is not there. I have stuck with her for about 4 years trying to keep her off the booze. now that she is not drinking she has no use for me and feel so used up. I have no one to talk to about this stuff and not saying you need to get involved but just to say you are not alone in the struggle with some one you may care about. I want to be free of her and yet I don't. Round and round I go. seems like you and I need some real distraction. For myself I have so much chronic pain that I do not do a heck of a lot and am stuck at home with my thoughts. I am replying to you to put a little change in my day and hope that by changing my routine my dreams may change also. No This really does not help I suppose but again you are not alone. Have a good day my friend and hope you get some answers and closure.

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