Hey Latch, and welcome.

I have no idea why you want to be hit, and certainly couldn't begin to wonder why. But everyone is different and that I do understand.

Have you ever sought out some therapy? I think it may be helpful for you to figure out why you want this, and perhaps find ways to stop it later, if that's what you want. It may just be the thing to help you find a calmer place and have a more fruitful relationship if your fella doesn't like hitting you. I wish he didn't tho, even though you say he did it because you wanted him to.

Good luck with whatever path you take and I hope you find some answers and peace soon.