It's just that I've gotten negative comments about my body from a doctor of all people (perhaps she was an assistant/nurse?), but she was in dermatology so she's seen all there is in "bad-looking" skin, and yet she still reacts like I'm some sort of circus freak and I look worse now than I did then.

And it's also the fact that wearing less clothes doesn't get the sort of attention one would expect. Others on here mention that they get looks or attention from people who find them attractive...that's never happened. So it's even MORE embarrassing to try to dress in a "sexier" way (I'm not sure if I even understand the concept of "sexy", but that's probably for a different thread) because no one pays attention. So there's nothing worth paying attention to...or people are just being polite and not making comments about my ugly skin etc. Where I live now, the vast majority of people I'm around are very respectful and polite and don't make fun of the way I act/look/dress etc. but I still very uncomfortable dressing and looking the way I want to because I'm afraid they will like people used to where I grew up. And for the record, I have bad looking skin that scares dermatologists...so yeah in some ways I'm much less attractive than others my age. But I think the really telling thing is the fact that no one is ever interested in me, in fact they get angry/upset and all kinds of negative reactions if I have the gall to be attracted to them. And for the record, these are guys I'm talking about and I'm a girl. If girls reacted that way, I'd understand, but not guys...aren't guys supposed to be at least a little happy that a girl finds him attractive and not act like I'm some sort of poison that will destroy him socially if he's ever see talking to me again (or anything else less dramatic but just as hurtful)?