Dealing with these uncontrollable mood swings is making me get very bad thoughts of hurting myself again. It's the suffering I feel in my head over and over that gets the feelings0 in my head to ease the suffering.
Been having a really hard time coping with my issues and letting them off of my chest. It's effecting my personality so much I just very frustrated and sick of fin everything right now.

I feel I can go off right now and chew someone a new ****ing asshole with all the anger and rage I got boiling inside me. Then I wind down and get so sad and self guilt about my thoughts it tears me up so bad I want to stop the hurting so much.

I don't know what to do anymore its just me fighting myself and not trying to do any major damage in the meantime.