Crashing hard. Not really functional right now. Anger has been consuming me lately and it's not okay. I hate myself. I hate BPD. I hate struggling to not lose my temper..I hate being called dramatic all the time because I can't control my feelings. I hate waking up and just waiting for the crash and burn, for the suicidal feelings to return. I want to be happy. I want to have healthy relationships. I want to feel happiness at the start of a new day, not dread. I just want it all to stop.