I had a session today....Iīm quite disappointed. I wanted to make some things clear to my T so I wrote a story about myself I wanted to share with her. It was kind of important to me there were also things I wanted her to know but was not able to share in person. And she would not read it. She expressed that she doesnīt want to read it but hear it from me. She thinks I feel more in control like that and Iīm trying to make things perfect bla bla bla .... I was cross. But I donīt know how to tell her the things I write about I canīt express myself well enought. I do it much better on paper.......grrrr what an evening. Now Iīm siting home alone with a glass of Porto and cheese feeling sad. This session was dumb.... I was dumb didnīt have answers to many of her questions.
I went to bed last night at 3.30 AM!!! Finishing this fu....ing story she didnīt read ANYWAY!!! I even didnīt study properly for my today exam because of it!!!