recently i developed a way to cope with bad feelings and experiences by imagining a little blue gift-wrapped box with a red bow sitting in the corner of a dark room. i imagine that i'm putting these experiences into that box and closing them up and i forget them until i am able to reason with myself, i guess. i have found that when i'm "in the moment" so to speak, i can't think clearly without shutting the moment away for a while. this has helped multiple times over the last few weeks, since i started back to work. i haven't been doing it for the last couple days and have been freaking out, for lack of a better term, when i experience something negative. it's much easier to imagine the box when i am with other people, as though the presence of others forces me to remember that i need to act normal and not react irrationally.

i must note that i have always been one to "forget" negative experiences since i was very little, but i've only recently started making a conscious effort because the negative experiences have become more frequent.

i was wondering if this was a form of dissociation. i have brought it up with a therapist but have not received any kind of confirmation from him because for one i don't think he's capable of making any kind of diagnosis right now and for another i only see him once every two weeks.

i would have researched it myself but honestly, i don't trust myself to know even if i did find anything on it.

thank you.