Eh, if you feeling crap... your precious meds ain't working. "I would be EVEN worse without 'em" could be easily lying to yourself. Sometimes less meds, even no meds is the win. But it's not about throwing your pills away... it's about working hard on yourself. Be honest with yourself. Learn to ground when things get hard.

Being out of it isn't end of things if you know how to sail through. Episodes pass... but you need a battle plan. Without it, you are simply running into a mine field.