I'm actually not sure if this has to do with ADD, but i was diagnosed when i was in 3rd grade, and i feel it could be a contributing factor. i can't seem to accomplish anything in life. normal things, too. i think maybe its because i can't seem to focus on any goal for longer than a day or so. i know i could write them down, but i'm lazy and there's something else that holds me back from doing things which might help. its like some sort of mental or emotional block. i say "emotional" because the feeling i get when i think about helping myself is negative. i don't know what's wrong with me. i know i'm smart and its not like i'm any less capable than anyone else. i was horrible at school, but if i'm interested in something, learning about it is no problem. i do sense that i'm not normal in terms of thought process, but its hard to explain. i don't mean that in either a good or bad way; just different. anyhow, it seems like i have everything i need to be successful, but despite that, i'm totally not and i think its more than just lack of motivation. at the same time, i don't think its due to being incapable. its like there's something blocking me from making any progress in life. i feel more like a spectator than an active participant. i want to feel involved, and i'm scared that the issue is too deeply a part of me to do anything about.