Since I have been here playing arcade and posting my mood changes I thought it only appropriate to explain being here again.

I have been good for a long while but recently I am facing some challenges that are the last thing I expected. I have lost partial vision in one eye suddenly - and the same is beginning in the other one.

It seems to be a confusing case of autoimmune activity without any confirmation from tests that I have an autoimmune disease. There is more but this is my worst fear.

I have been vigilant to find resources and investigate my options as I am self supporting and live alone. I drive carefully but have had a few concerns here and there.

My usual way of coping is to withdraw but I am being encouraged to outreach instead for support. I have to admit that I do feel better talking about it rather than sitting in my head.

Aside from my eye sight getting worse - I fear my depressive thoughts will sink me into self pity (as my MD just reminded me of what happened last year when he tried to help me with something else). I would rather cope and live my life to the best that I can.

Thanks for reading and support in advance.