Going to be a long night! Already I can feel the tears of loneliness coming on. Most evenings I become tearful after a long day of loneliness that never seems to end. Nothing I have done helps this, although it definitely contributes to the daily feelings of suicide.

Now I will drive a truck for the next 9 hours alone in the middle of nowhere. Let’s hope some accident occurs and that be the end of this loneliness…

(Yes this is indeed how I feel everyday.)