Thanks for the remarks. I've already done my share of pushing away earlier on, so it's something that became a bit of a wedge between us. This is where I say what happened with the ex came into play since there was a lot of damage there that happened over the years and I developed a lot of trust issues. I don't believe my girlfriend will cheat and she's done nothing to make me think she has or will, but my mind goes off on some wild tangents sometimes.

Yes, I recognize the behavior on my part, but I have a very hard time trying to control it when it crops up. I've had issues in my past with anger as well that have gotten better with time away from the ex, so to me it's really about learning self control for a number of my emotions.

I wish I could be that calm, cool guy that could keep it all contained but that's never really been me. Even in better forms, like when I was an athlete in my younger days, I always threw my passion out there on the field.