For as long as I can remember, I have had very bad health anxiety. I remember being 5 years old & getting a little chest pain & staying up all night so I wouldnt die from a heart attack. Now I know that the pressure I felt was a panic attack.

As I got older, the worries went from heart attacks to cancers to HIV to germs, you name it, Ive thought I had it. At the moment Im stuck on Dvt. Even though 2 months ago, a doppler ruled it out, its still keeping me up at night. Ive been having severe, full blown panic attacks all throughout the day. I am constantly checking & rechecking my leg. The other night I stressed out about it so much, I gave myself a horrible migraine. It was so bad that noise was making me throw up. Even though the only symptom of Dvt that I have is pain & the Er told me its sciatica causing it, its like Im obsessed with my leg. I have varicose veins & they cause such anxiety, that I cant hardly look at my leg without getting scared. I feel stupid.

My aunt gets blood clots in her legs all the time & told me that blood clots make your leg itch. Well lo and behold, my leg is now itching. I dont know how to make this stop. Im at my wits end. I try to be logical about it. I know the itching is probably because I shaved my legs today & my skin is just dry from that, but the more I try to reason with myself, the more anxious I become. I start thinking "Well sciatica dont make your calf hurt" or "Varicose veins mean a blood clot" even though I know varicose veins are secondary. See? My thoughts are so back & forth & disjointed.

Im so tired from lack of sleep & the panic attacks wear me out physically & emotionally. I.cant function like this. I have a doctors appointment with a new Gp Tuesday to see about an Mri. Im hoping he can help alleviate my fear of this pain in my leg. But waiting is so hard. Is there any advice yall have? Please?