Yelled at me by my drunk genius 17 yr old. He's mad we don't have a lot of food, he's mad I bought carrots. I'm grumpy just got out of bed to go pick his stranded *** up from town. I reminded him I've helped him out and please be nice. I said I just don't have money. I give money when he does extra chores, he spends on pot alcohol cigarettes. I want him to turn 18 already and move out. Then he says he'll hang himself before he has to turn 18. ... I work more hours than anyone I know, but can't pay myself right now which happens when you own a business sometimes. He's a child he doesn't understand, he is so verbally abusive to me, at least it's no longer physical. Then next thing he'll say he loves me and he's sorry he's drunk. He wants to hang himself and I bit my tongue because cant let him know I'm on the same edge.

He is terribly immature, I'm in a living hell. I want out, there's no way out. I want to be appreciated for how hard I work and having never received any child support. I want out I want it over. But it's not an option... Moving towns sounds more and more like the solution.

I just needed to vent maybe get a hug. Please respond if you've been through this too, I feel so lost and alone.

Please do not respond if you're one of those who's not a parent yet likes to tell poor troubled moms they've not done well at parenting. I hate how judgmental people get on here lately, it doesn't help us.

My rage is bad right now I'd like to burn my house down and drink a bottle of wine, but I'm in bed and trying to ride it out and process these bad feelings.