Blue I'm sorry I didn't see this sooner. Please no more cash for him have him write stuff he wants and use that for thanks but you need to keep as much $ as you can right now. Explain to him that picking him up at 4 in the morning does not help (when he's calm) and you are trying your best and doing a damn good job at it. Remember he's self medicating sounding more on the edgy up side but do not take anything except "I love you" to heart. I want to write more but am being told I have to at least wait in bed until the sun's up I will PM you before the end of tomorrow. You are a great mom!