Hi, Moon : )
I feel compelled to post; the more that I read about our needs as infants not being met the clearer my reality is becoming..it is really, really frightening. I have always been child-like...as a kid, as a teen, as a young adult and here I am as a middle aged adult and STILL feel like a child. Having said that, I am fully able to operate as an adult, work full time, manage my home, kids, bills, etc. But...I have this ever-present little girl,baby,infant,,not sure which one...and I thank you for helping me realize this from prior postings : ) I let me ex take care of me during our relationship...it went from what I think was normal to where she cared for me, made important decisions, she lectured me,,,it almost turned me on! It is so hard to explain,,,but I just feel like this child is there, waiting for something, and I struggle with it. My T. is aware of this I am sure. She knows that I have abandonment issues. What is frightening for me is to learn what happened...what didn't I receive as an infant? ( or whatever stage it was)...what went so terribly wrong? I almost don't want to know...do we ever really find out? This reality is hard..and for me, embarrassing. But I know that if I ever want to be at peace it needs to be addressed. Thanks for your continued support!!