I can relate to a few things said here. Sorry for not responding sooner.

I am not alone in life as I have no clue how this happened but have a very good husband that no matter what I have done to him or said to him etc has not left and has said he never will. I believe that due to the things we've been through and the many times he could have and didn't. I offer this as a small glimmer of hope that there is someone out there for you. It may take a while to find the right person. Longer than we like I am sure.

Now if he were to ever leave or something were to happen to him then yes I would be totally alone. So I do get worrying about the things you do.

I am a worrier. I worry about stuff all the time. It sucks. It drains the life right out of you but I can't seem to stop. Hugs to both of you here.