I'm feeling dumb. I always seem to feel this way whenever I start seeing a therapist, though I've never seen someone for more than a few sessions. I start feeling self conscious and foolish, that maybe it's all in my head, or worse, that maybe I'm really not off as bad as I keep thinking, like my problems aren't as bad as other people's. I hate that I start putting up my walls and begin lying to myself. Ugh, why is this so hard?

Backstory: the psychologist I wanted to see finally called and I'm going to see her in person to discuss my situation and whether we are a good fit.

Btw, I just wanna thanks to all the people who have offered advice and comforting words over the last 2 years. I yearn for the day where I can offer any wisdom to others on here. I always come here whenever things get bad but I always feel guilty for not providing others with feedback. So thanks to everyone. Truly.