and now i am 35. I am serious in real life, i really am, but everyone just sees me as a kid and eventually they work out that i can be walked all over.

i don't think anybody takes me seriously and i certainly don't take myself seriously.

I would like to be a man who dresses well, has a job, wears a watch, has discussions and can socialise and laugh. someone who drives a car and has friends and who people are glad to see.

In stead really i'm just a spider in the corner and i live with my parents and i wear trash and i don't have a watch or a car anymore and i have social anxiety disorder so i don't socialise, and my hair has always sucked and i don't have a job either.

In other words i suck and everything sucks.