Hi Lost&Confused ~

Sorry you're going through this... Unfortunately I have to agree with the others. Whether he is aware of it or not, he is emotionally putting you down, and based on what you have said, it does seem like he has his own hmm 'issues'. You need to understand that it's not your fault. Yes you have gone through a hard childhood but whatever impact that has had on you, in effect makes your emotional state now completely 'normal'.

For any relationship to 'work' however, you need to communicate with one another. Have you told him about your point of view in regards to his negative criticism? He perhaps isn't truly aware of his behavior and how it's affecting you?

All in all though, you don't need to change - not for anyone (that includes your boyfriend.) The only person you should change for is yourself. At the end of the day, do whatever makes you happy. Be whoever you want to be. If you're proud of yourself, then you're already on the right track. Don't let anyone else tell you otherwise.

I hope things start to improve for you soon. Take care and feel free to let us know how you are getting on ~