This will pass, and things will get better!! One time I went out to the barn with a nice soft blanket, and took a nap in the hay mow away from the phones, etc. I could hear my horses down below in their stalls, and the barn cat came to visit me for a minute. It was a peaceful experience. Maybe you can find something like this to start you on the road to repair. Good Luck. We are all thinking about you!