Work towards that. Find what you want to do and do it. Yes, you have to pursue it, even when it is not "fun" or interesting; everything worth doing has some aspect that one doesn't necessarily like. Everyone has that problem, you are not strange or different in that way.

But we are largely made up of habits and you are getting in the habit of not working on things, of making excuses, and that will only get stronger the more you indulge in it. Break down goals into smaller pieces, as small as you need to and get things you want to do done that way.

There's no magic answer or good enough excuse for not doing what we want to do. If you decide you are no longer interested, finish it anyway, just to get in the habit of finishing what you start. I did not figure out how to do that with homework in school until I was 41! It's just you dealing with yourself, no one else can do anything about that.