Thank you for the caring suppoort, hugs and pm's

I knocked myself out with several klons, and slept some. No alcohol, still no cigs (can't afford to buy any anyway ha fml). But I'm proud that I accomplish that amidst this living hell.

I need to move to town. The kid relies on me for a ride anywhere, we live up a highway in the woods, 20 min drive from town, no public buses, hitch hiking is illegal and unsafe, he doesn't have many friends. I'm his only source for transportation.

He needs to get a job. We got the paperwork signed off by his teacher so he can now legally work under age 18. If we live in town, he can get to a job on his own.

Problem with town is getting the money to move in somewhere, first, last & deposit, and credit checks, and finding new homes for my animals. Dog & 5 cats, 2 chickens. But an apartment will only allow 1-2 pets. It will be hard on me and the kids to have to choose between our pets, impossible really. The chickens we could possibly eat, because we are getting that hungry.

I will miss my beautiful house and land here, the trees, the veggie gardens, the fresh eggs... oh well it's time to move on. My neighbors hate us and the feeling is mutual so that part will be nice to get away from as well.

Youngest doesn't want to move, he's scared about trying to make new friends. He'll be going into middle school next year, and I don't blame him - kids are cruel. Maybe there's something summer camp in town I could sign him up for so he can meet some kids in sports before jumping straight into class in September.

There have to be solutions i'm just not seeing them all yet. Back to bed now, I'm very tired.