Hi cka...I'm sorry to hear you're having such a hard time right now. Out of curiosity, what makes you say that your T will judge you/not believe you have an ED because of the weight gain? Have they given you any indication not to trust them? I only ask because any T worth the effort of seeing would understand that EDs are not about outward appearances. I hope you are able to find some healing and sanity around what you are experiencing right now.