I'm pondering what you all have said and there is so much merit in all of it.

I left the area for a short time but returned to my hometown with a renewed appreciation for small-town life. After the last reunion I didn't go to a classmate came into my work and gave me a rash of crap about how others came from so far away and I'm right here in town and couldn't be bothered...blah blah blah!!

My memories of my high-school years are of loneliness, solitude, and general bad feelings. Even when I hear music from that era I feel that way. I think my anxieties and negativity comes from memories of my extreme low self-esteem back then. It has taken a lifetime to overcome that.

So do I suck it up and prove to myself I am a much stronger person or do I skip and miss another outing from my high-school??

Again, I thank you for your input. Much to ponder