I started disassociating when I was only 8 or 9 years old when home life became intolerable and I couldn't show it and when I was severely bullied in school and couldn't show it or tell my parents about it.

It's just gotten really bad this past year. It seems almost any anxiety or upsetting event sets it off. It can get bad to the point where it interferes with my being able to function. It happened in class one day last year where I couldn't remember what I'd been teaching all day or my students' names.

Usually, however, it's more of a dull numbness that takes the anxiety or pain away. I just want to get over this and come up with a more "normal" way of coping.