gee I sure hear what you're saying... I just canNOT go back through my journals... it's tough enough to write things the first time. I become sooooo much more depressed when I try. T says no reason to at this point... well, after 17+ years I think there never will be a Point.

Once, when I had a "recovery" from depression, I wrote an article for a nationwide Christian magazine... but the "recovery" was not real, and by the time they wanted me to explain more, and get through the editing process, I was too deep in dark depression again to bother. Makes me wonder...

hope you make the right decision.

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