Thanks everyone! All of your responses are great. I wish I could find a new environment, but I'm kinda stuck here in a house we own, with a baby and a stressed out, cranky , non affectionate husband. I also have this "love thing" for my therapist (call it transference and I'll stomp on your toe...lol) I've never told her, nor will I...we have less than a years worth of time left together (she's a phd student and is graduating) and I don't want to mess it all up with "I think I'm in love with you, and have been for a while" I don't see a point in it, I understand how ethics work, and the boundaries that are put on therapist/client relationships...I'm pretty sure I know what she'd say anyway, so there's no point. But yea, that might have something to do with it also.