The meds work differently in a lot of people. I was worried, at first, when Adderall was suggested by my pdoc, but I've been taking it for four years and my dosage is the same and just as effective. I also find that I rarely want to drink alcohol, which is a pretty good side effect.

You should definitely pickup a book about ADD, I believe the knowledge I gained from reading up on the disorder helped as much as the meds. I found that what I believed was my own lazy, selfish and odd way of thinking were very common in ADDer's.

I hope you feel a little better about yourself soon