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Yes, this sounds like a 'rupture' in that there was lack of attunement, understanding.
But the wonderful thing, is how she responded after reading your e-mail. She seem to truly get it, 'get' you and she's owned her part in all of this.
She called me and asked me to come in today so she could talk to me. I went and I don't remember much, but she essentially apologized for not hearing me when I pretty much was saying in my own words that she was pushing to hard. she apologized for not hearing me and for not meeting me where I was. She said that she figured bc I've made so much surface level progress (going back to school, cutting back on my drinking, etc) that she thought I was ready to tackle the issue with my mother (by inviting her to a T appointment!). She said after she read my email she realized that I wasn't ready to deal with an emotionally charged issue just yet.
The above sounds great to me and I'm happy for you. It may take time to re-establish trust, but this would be understandable.
To me her reaction about the meds sounds rather impulsive. Have you talked to her about it? I suspect she would acknowledge that this was about your reaction to her, but maybe she was concerned about the nature of that reaction. Which doesn't, of course, mean that you have to agree with her about meds. She, so far, sounds reasonable enough, so I think it would be really useful to talk about it.
Lastly, I was really struck by this:
she pretty much confirmed for me that no one would understand me
Did she say this, or did you feel it was implied in some way?
'Repair' can be relatively quick or more prolonged, but it sounds like you're on a good track. Hugs and good luck!
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