I'm wondering if others can breathe some insight into this situation. Thank you in advance.

Yesterday I was incredibly upset (long story, as it is for most) and was determined to commit suicide. After several hours of preparation, including sending a goodbye message to a close friend whom I had promised before that I would call her if I ever felt like that, when I went to actually commit the act, I started having racing thoughts of all of the positive things in my life and started bawling (rare, as I haven't cried in at least 4-5 years, let alone to that degree). I cried so hard that (in combination with my lack of sleep recently) I passed out and slept for a few hours.

I woke up to the police knocking on my door; the aforementioned friend saw the message and contacted police. Long story short, I was taken to the hospital, put on hold, and released in the morning (conditionally).

My first worry is that my friend (who is a psychologist, by the way--I am a trainee), who said she wants me to call her, but not until tomorrow, is so angry at me (for breaking my promise, for attempting suicide, for being a burden to her the past few weeks [she has never put it that way, but that's how I feel] that she is planning to end the friendship and never speak to me again. I worry that by default, but also because I worry that, because when the police arrived I was so daunted and scared that I tried to downplay everything, told her that I was just asking for attention or something to that effect, and that's what she thinks.

That is my second major worry--what are the police allowed to tell her? I told them they could call her and tell her I was picked up/stable (her request), but they didn't stay around to see what happened, so what did they likely say to her? Would they tell her I was faking or just trying to get attention?

I guess I feel very badly about how all this has affected everyone. On one hand I know I need help and I suppose this was a last ditch effort to get it, but on the other hand I worry that people will think I did this as the rational person they've come to know and care for, and subsequently not want anything to do with me anymore.

Thank you for your input.