((Punksi2))

It sounds like you've had to face a lot of horrible consequences for your mistake/s. It is very hard to lose everything ~ been there (due to my mental and physical illnesses). I have had to work on myself a lot to get back into life as much as I have.

My daughters are back in my life with love, I've found my own apartment to live in (with a second bedroom for my girls to share), another love interest, and assistance from the county & several doctors. Not an overnight change, no, but the good changes have taken place. For that, I am thankful!

I recommend tenderly apologizing to those that you've hurt, and allowing them time to adjust to the change/s as well. Your life will be a lot more pleasant when you allow yourself to start moving forward. Very best wishes to you!

p.s. Welcome to Psych Central!!