When I write a page or two on something, about to hit submit---- and I don't finish it because at the end---- I know, that no one on PC can really help me with what I am asking, and deep down I have to choose what I need to do...

I am in the situation.. i have to decide..

some times I wonder if that is me growing a little or not... and other times I wonder if it is me losing hope and fear of not being heard.