Unfortunately, still feeling intense emotional and physical pain. My eyes are swollen and sore from crying. I am shaking. My urges and behaviours escalating (if that is possible).

I have a terrible sense of foreboding. I wonder where I will end up? Back in Psych Unit? Somewhere else?

Why can't I ask for proper help? I don't even know who I am. Feel like I don't belong anywhere.

I tried reaching out to someone in real life, someone who had offered, however, got badly burned…his words were harsh and it felt like a physical and powerful slap on the face. I am still reeling in mixed emotions from this.

Here come the tears…again.