seems like your old torturers have found a new way to torture you. Don't let them! Tell them to mind their own business!

Is there a way that you can find a counselor or therapist to help you know the best part of you and to teach you how to stand for yourself?

You're young, you've got a long way to go that's why is paramount that you learn how to protect yourself.
We don't know the reasons why you did not learn in proper time but it doesn't matter you can learn now and get it right once and for all.

Martial art is a good idea but you need to muster the art to protect yourself, to let know people you don't want around that you don't want them around.

You can do it!!