Asiablue: She does have other forms of T. Yes I did suffer abandonment issues as a child,I was traumatized in my childhood as well. Partially blame myself because T only knows a smidge of the trauma,because I refuse to talk about it. Trauma is one of the things T deals with as well

the fear of perceived abandonment and the frantic effort to avoid attachment in the first place sounds like a part of BPD

And you're very right I'm so impulsive the minute I feel any sort of attachment,I runaway. In the beginning T kept telling me I kept pushing her away and I told her it was because I was afraid to get close now,she's rejecting and pushing me away. The feeling sucks

Moonlitsky: we NEED to be able to depend on the therapist thanks for saying this,I thought it was all in my head
I agree I was so hurt,when I blurted out "you're just like everyone else now"

It makes me upset because from the get go I let T know that I had attachment issues and rejection fears

Echoes:Thanks for your compassion,I agree it may not be

Syra:Its weird my T never went over boundaries with me,even though I clearly remember asking and then one day,swoosh,took everything away. T was trying to put what she was saying in a way that I wouldn't take it "personal" like are you kidding meee?

I always kept T at a distance and just when I was starting to completely trust T,she hit me with this.Now I don't feel safe anymore,I'm trying to figure out if this (is this a rupture?) can be fixed or not. Usually when someone hurts me,I runaway and cut them off never to speak again and if I do its years later

Thank You everyone for all the support and advice so far!!!