I told Therapist #1 that I was dependent on him to make through each week. That he was a crutch and if that crutch was kicked out from under me I would be right back to that dark place. He said that it was fine to have a crutch while I healed. I would have that desperate need to make contact with him between sessions so I would always email him a question that would elicit a response. He would respond but has mentioned how he is very cautious about responding by email because a persons true intentions or meaning can be interpreted wrong.