Stupid me! *note to self, stay away when family brings groceries home*
Binged something awful today. Had been doing somewhat ok, until my parents came home with the groceries, which happen to be some of the most tempting foods they could buy. Should'nt have given in to the Ice cream Snickers, but it was all downhill from there, because I couldn't stop with something so sweet, had to try to even it out with this great healthy salsa and chips... but once I start munching those I can't stop. Then popped a marshmallow at the bonfire, which is way too sweet to have alone, so I had to null it with something bready - more carbs, just what I don't need. Feel so full, and mad at myself. Makes me not want to deal with anything, found out today I only work 2 days next week, which is going to make car insurance really tight. Plus they're sending me back to the smaller concession stand, which I didn't like... I was actually kinda enjoying working the larger one... there goes that.
I'm lonely, bored, stressed, and feeling like crap, so I get acne breakouts and binge and get fatter and waste money on smaller clothes because at this rate I'll be too fat and covered in acne to wear them, and guess I can't really afford them since my job's crap. And I don't want to deal with it anymore, I want to forget it all and kill myself, but no, I'll just go to more useless work on this nasty body and exercise until I can't anymore. And then, maybe tomorrow I'll actually practice self-control and not eat junk. Stupid idiot.