Yeah, me too - I get a bad mean streak and I hate it. Cuz usually next day or two, I have a calmer opinion on the matter.

I almost sent a page long text to this real estate ex-friend person who betrayed me, and she was offering a gift to my son... I somehow stopped myself and deleted it, and just said, "that's a very kind offer, but no thank you." I figure I'll tell her what I really think at another time. Then she wrote to me that she was getting ready for her mother's memorial service the next day - I had no idea, and so glad I didn't go off on her right before she has to deal with that. I'm not going to go back to being friends with her, but I have some true morals and that would've been a horrible time to tell her what time it is.

Maybe age and experience and enough regrets tell me to hold off - hopefully - wait and see if I'm still so upset before I approach someone about something. I know about myself I'm so sensitive and should take some time to wrap my head around the thing before I make a move.

But the things , the mean things, that I tell myself -- really hard to control. I'd like to go back to mindfulness therapy for more help with that - it's expensive but worth it. And I should be more disciplined with regular daily meditation too.